Midwifery

[Allstartiger]

Before I had DD I had applied for midwifery, but then fell pregnant so much for being on the pill.

Anyway I still plan to reapply in the next few years. I would apply this year but not sure how child care would work. And the money for it.

My main 2 problems is the hospital where I had my DD and the c-section. Long story short when I had DD I became every sick with an infection after being in labour for 82 hours and hind water were broken before that, I had a placenta praeiva, There was several things that went wrong, lied to on several occisantions. When I got home I was having nightmares and suffered with several wound infections due to the wound reopening.

I was told the next baby I had I would have to have a c-section or in the labour ward with full monitoring. Which I didn't think was right. I wrote a large complaint to the care of DD and myself.

The hospital brushed it off and I ended up contacting a midwife from the hospital she was really helpfully.

I am not sure I can work in the hospital were I had DD for the reason, I put in the complaint, 2 I am a mess when I see or here about anyone having a c-section worse if it is emcs. I feel sick there section I had was fine, but the care before and after by the doctors was awful, and a midwife.

The midwives on the post-natal ward were great, I believe they saved my life.

Not sure what do to, do I apply and work with them if I get accepted. There is no other local hospital. I really want to be a midwife but worry that my own expeinse could also affect the care I give. x

I hope this makes sense and I have posted in the right area

[crossfire]

I think in all honesty you really need to work through this properly before you apply to a midwifery course. It is not something you can just brush under the carpet. Midwifery training puts you in many places whilst training, community, antenatal and postnatal wards aswell as labour ward/delivery suite whatever its called so yu weouldn't just be in one place, and even though you can remember the details vividly as you'd expect because it happened to you, the midwives involved may not even recognise you, let alone remember any events. It is likely alos that many of the midwives will have moved away from the unit so you may not come into contact with them.
You will see a fair number of cs as a student and part of the training is to become competent in theatre to be with the woman whilst she has an operative birth. Is there any way you could get some counselling over this? Is there a birth reflections service whereby a midwife could go over your notes with you, or you could get your notes and go over them, because you do need closure before you start training. Its too full on to have baggage in your head before you start.

If this is the only unit where you would train? is it a large hospital in a remote area? most trusts have a couple of hospitals where you can go to, or the unis cover a few trusts and you would travel to one of the units in a different trust, that way you wouldn't have to go back to the unit that causes you so much distress. If you feel ready to apply then do so, but think hard about what may occur at interview, what questions you will beasked because unis are pretty good at sniffing out major issues and less likely to take students that alreay have this stress because you will have to deal with so much more whilst training. There will be women who need emergency cs, there will be women who are poorly, who get wound infections, who go to itu, not many but some and you may well be involved in caring for them. The reason for sorting out our own baggage before we start is that we have to be there for the woman 110% and not be upset by reminders of trauma, poor care etc. The families we look after aren't interested in that. We are there for them.

Think it through. Thre is no rush, midwifery is always there and will be when you are ready.

[HazelB]

I totally agree with crossfire here, you really need to get things ironed out so that they wouldnt make the training any harder than it already is, Im at a hospital on placement where I had 5 babies and certain rooms, smells, faces etc etc bring memories flooding back, both good and bad, its like returning to the scene ifswim??

Think it through. Thre is no rush, midwifery is always there and will be when you are ready.

yep tis true x

[Allstartiger]

I am seeing a counsellor, for many reasons. I had a birth reflection, but some of my notes where missing and made I wasn't ready for them and didn't understand them well.

There is only one local hospital I could get to without traveling over 20 miles via bus.

I think I will apply to college for access to nursing/intor to nursing and see how I cope with even going back to college